This electronic medium is me trying to figure out who I am and what I am supposed to be doing after raising my son.
So e-nesting is my blog name. I figure this is going to be an adventure. I love that word, adventure. It makes me want to go out there, wherever there is and discover it or do it![Much better than say, groping around in the dark? which I definalely identify with, but- too negative.] " I love an adventure!" It sparks a thrill in me. The thrill of the planning, the anticipation of a trip, the plotting and charting, and dreaming up an imaginary itinerary, and a meal plan and which route I will take and what stuff I want to see- in any given land- I long for an Adventure!!I'm never afraid of an adventure unlike say facing the great unknown. So I am adventure-ing, discovering the next path to walk in my life. I'm going to really enjoy this part of my life because you see, I've been waiting for it for soooooooooo long...now I just need to find out what it is.
I have spent my adult life raising my son and dreaming of the day I would have 'my time for me' :) & now I do, wo-hoo!! & well, I'm bored. I don't know what to do with myself & confession, I miss my son:( I might even be co-dependent I mean it's much easier to focus on what he needs to do with his life than for me to focus on my life, which is what exactly? Well that is what I'm going to find out-" I am"!
It does feel empty, this nest of mine, and lonely too. Although it's cute (my nest is). My motto is..."when the going gets tough I Decorate". Sounds really shallow right? well- guilty as charged- because the only thing that makes me happy right now is re-decorating, thinking about decorating, thrift shopping, finding something fab that can be used for... whatever? and making it into that:)I will paint it, sand it, attach sea shells to it, design something or building something. It makes me happy, or at least keeps me moving.
This 'blogging thing' was suggested by a friend, it's not really me, computers, typing etc...but I'm hoping it will be cathartic and fabulous and fun.....like "Julie and Julia" worthy of being made into a movie-HA! (well, it could happen right?)
I am daring to walk out there and bump into stuff in the dark and not be afraid and It'll be an adventure, woo-hoo!!
Dear Lord please shine a light on the path--LP.